YUMINNNN

whats happening to me? am i having too much fun? am i just being too paranoid? do i need to be doing this? am i improving? whats ahead of me? do i know how to study harder? why am i so relaxed when i shouldnt be? will i win a trophy during the tournaments? [FOR MYSELF, NOT ANYONE ELSE.esp not for coach.]
will i get a pass for my chinese? will i have to retake?
whats my path? do i just walk it like everyone does and then just continue doing what is rightfully the duties of my role as a yumin?



urgh.



feeling fucking thoughtful lah. just ignore this post. i think im gonna just read it myself over and over again.
i gotta wake myself up, i really got to.
yep.& i would.
i had planned to do a little work before i come here to type out everything that you, my faithful readers, have been missing out on lately.
but i cant. because the emotions is overwhelmingly threatening to burst out. i dunno how im feeling actually you know? its weird, sometimes you just know the feeling inside aint good. sigh.
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so long ive waited, for the very moment ive pictured inside my mind.so very long.but i dont think i'd be able to get it.cus what ive imagined is just an imagination.its just glimpses of hope, you know?like you hope for something to happen sometimes&your mind starts wandering off to create this movie of your own.
yumins productions ha.ha.

no matter how long ive waited, i knew for a fact..that my imagination WAS just imagination.how can imagination linger in your mind longer than memory does? hm.think theres a reason.. somehow? :]

i dunno what was he doing today.and i dont wanna hope for anything good.cus to compare,im not THAT good at all.in fact, im bad.everything about me is bad, you know?
like im vulgar,a rough lady,etc etc.&im so not gonna be the apple of anyone's eye.
i hated what he was doing.i wanted him to stop.but ironically at the same time, i wanted him to show me more..make me know what is he trying to.how long had that last?what infatuation uh?
for the whole day..whole damn day.
compliment is something like flattery right?thanks for the flatteries (uh) a lot.i appreciate it, but please.. not getting used to it at all.&i dont want to. darn it.i just hope it doesnt happen again.not that history repeats itself... -.-
contradicting, i know.
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okay,that was outta my chest.i think only ant knows.ha.ha.but whatever.eat shyt laaa
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racial harmony day was ytd.it was fun wearing the costumes :)
worn the peach one actually.but after that i changed to the limegreen one. i like heh ^^
saw a lot of flashes man.countless of pictures taken.but heh kinda nice la.
now i understand why the sec4s last year was so enthusiastic about it yea?
yea..shall upload the pictures l8r.forgotten my cam today ): what i wrote on the board looked like cash.tsk.
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went for bowling today.had an alright game with the dry lane D:
but with the moderate-oiling lanes i got like worse?aha didnt really care already was kinda bored.but the interview was kinda fun.& also cathay chevrons meeting room is a nice place to study in! seriously!! real great.can concentrate la.tsk.i would want that place for a study .. place?
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couldnt stay. ): boy i so missed it.but sigh *shrug*
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pictures? A LOT. and i mean a lot. think the scroller will be damn short. *points to right*
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with my earrings on already!after pe during amath lesson.

e3! amath lesson.

my feet is too small for wanling's slipper. or is it too big for me D:

me&jor. haha that peachy colour.
and my hair is super messy -.-

our hairs are messy lol.

sk,wl,ym,rt.

sk,wl,rt,th,ym.

rohayu,me&shirley.

nisha,val,amoolah,ym.

salbiah,radikha,deborah,zalikha,suhaila,ym,wl.

ym&ys!

shanling ah... -.-"

happy family! cat(sista!), nisha(2nd mum!), desmond(daddy the bloody flirt!),ym(daughter),amoolah(bastard child =x)

shanling ahhhhh.. -.-

i look dumb. lol daddy was handsome!

e3ians (:

amoolah.

forever the same smile =P

my funky rings :) [two holes, not one.]

MR LAI!

jasmins

rt,ym,ouracha,ant.

SHE CANT WINK!haha neither can i actually.and whats w wanling -.-

huiling,ym,eliza (EXTRA HEHEHHEH),ys,wl.

we cant enough of acting cute. 5 people! :)

cat&jasmin.the two indians :D

just cant get enough...

pizza hut -.-

bloody lousy service!

sharifahs heels&my flips.[darn i really need to train to walk on heels w/o getting my ankle sprained =p]

she tried to act cute again la..but urm the sunlight doesnt like her face D:

hai.. buaytahan us right? :)

hn&jor[the sutan!]

SUTAN!

okay at least she can wink nicer than me =x


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tmr la.. i shall continue. lol.

posted by yumin :D @ 9:38 PM